June 29, 2021

the most present I've ever been.

the most present I've ever been.

Last Friday, my longest-standing friend married the man of her dreams.

We celebrated the occasion at the Saratoga Hall of Springs, an absolutely breathtaking wedding hall that sits a hundred yards away from the stage at the Saratoga Performing Arts Center, the world-renowned concert venue where my best friends and I spent our summers singing, laughing, dancing and making memories.

The location (and wedding song - “You and Me” by Dave Matthews Band) was fitting.

For one night, it felt like nothing had changed. Like we were the same dumb kids who floated about SPAC without a care in the world.

But of course, everything has changed.

We’re adults now. We have careers. We’re scattered across the Northeast. One childhood best friend is now married. Another is engaged. Another is in a serious relationship.

Of course we’ll always be best friends. That will never change.

But I’ve seen this film before.

First comes marriage. And then kids. And moves across the country.

Priorities change. Habits change. People change.

In reality, there won’t be many more chances for us to gather in the same room again.

So I understood the gravity of the moment; nothing else mattered Friday night.

All that mattered was the bride and groom, my beautiful date, and the three amazing women whose friendships I hold so dearly to my heart.

We drank. 

We laughed.

We sang.

We took photos.

And we danced. A lot.

As someone who constantly rethinks yesterday and worries about tomorrow, staying in the moment is a struggle for me.

But for one night, finally, I felt like I belonged in the right place at the right time.

It was the most present I’ve ever been.

And the happiest I’ve felt in a long time.

Something tells me one can’t exist without the other.

Congratulations, Liana and Sam, and I wish you both endless years of happiness on your new journey together.

For more on this unforgettable night, check out today's podcast episode.